Thursday, September 6, 2012

A New Path

 
So now that I have all my ducks in a row I can give a better update.  I have returned from the Burzynski clinic.  He added a few new pills and IV chemotherapy to my regimen and I believe in all he is doing.
Dr. Burzynski and I

 I know some may disagree and that is ok.  But believe me I have prayed about this and asked for the Lord's guidance and I know that this is road God wants me on and is now leading me down.
It's crazy being the patient....in fact I hate it.  I always wanted to help people and some how I became the one that needs help.  Most of the time it is extremely challenging for me to accept help from others....but like a wise woman once told me don't cheat someone out of their blessing and it blesses people to bless you. 

So for now I am receiving new chemo from a new doctor and taking new pills.  My oncologist here is working with the treatment plan that the Burzynski Clinic wants me on.  I will do about 3 rounds of this chemo before I go back to the clinic for a follow up.  A nurse from the  Burzynski clinic also calls me every week to check up on me.  The way I see it is if you dont' think I'm gonna make it then your not on my team and I need people who believe in me to be on my team. 
Right now what our big concern is my head lesions.  I want to stop them completely and I'm praying that my next MRI will be clear.  I hate doing head radiation.....I hate how life-less it makes me feel.....and I'm praying I don't have to do it again.  So that is my big prayer right now is that I have a clear MRI in October. 


I can't tell you that I've gotten a clear message about how God is gonna use me in all this......I can only hope that my struggle will be for his glory and for his name sake.  I hope that when people look at me they dont' see me but they see Jesus because without him I would have been dead along time ago. 
I've always said I'm a christian but in times of trial is when my faith has been tested and I have cried out "Why me?"......I did not ask for this burden but I know that my father's will is greater than my own and I trust him with everything I am.
Luke 22:42
"Father if you are willing take this cup from me; yet not my will, but your be done"



6 comments:

NO1SB said...

I came across your blog whilst looking up info after my brother was diagnosed with cancer. I found that once I started reading I couldn't stop and started following you to keep up with how you are doing. I have always believed in the saying God never hands us more than we can handle and when I read your blog I see that is true. I know that most people would here your story and feel sorry for you but each time I read I am filled with hope. You have a smile that can light up a room and I feel that if you can keep smiling through all of this then there is nothing that people can not do if they just believe. You are in my prayers in the hope that you keep smiling, keep fighting and keep inspiring people to keep going.

Danielle Hernandez said...

I am came across your blog and you have inspired me! You are so brave and I know their is a plan for you in this world and your are going through all of this for a reason. I am 34 and was diagnosed with Hodgkin lymphoma. I start treatment on Monday and am scared. I read some of your posts on your blog and I know that the struggles will be hard, but I know I can do it. Thank you for having this blog and being so open and honest to the world. God Bless! I will be praying for you. :)

Rachael Koontz said...

I am continuing to lift you in prayer! You are amazing!

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