I felt helpless......so I closed my eyes and began tocry and pray. Speaking healing into this young womans body.....asking for God to take her pain and for her port to open. The port never gave blood but they were eventually able to access her vein and get some blood. Though I dont' have a child and could not fully understand what it's like to watch them go through something like this.......today I got just a little whiff of what it must be like....how hard it must be. I often wonder how hard it is for parents to watch their children suffer.......how hard it must be for my own mother to watch me suffer at times and feel helpless.
My mind goes back to Jesus and how God sent him here to die for us. He didn't have to but he did.....he sacrificed his only child so that we may all have life. He watched as his son....his child suffered and died an unspeakable death on the cross. I'd never imagined that God understands us but I realize after today that he understand us more than we realize. He's been there....he's watched his child suffer and so with that he understands parents suffering and I know he was there in that room today.....with that man as he cried watching his child suffer. Sometimes we forget that God's not just God......not just our Creator.....he is our Father and he understands our pains and struggles more than we realize. I forget this sometimes.....especially during the hard times when all we want to do is have God come....sit with us....hold us.....tell him our fears and frustration and have him take our pain literally. Even though that may not happen....know that he hears us......catches our tears....and even in the hardest moments he's carrying us because he's been there and he understands.